A friend did this and I straight up copied the idea, so, here’s what I would be, in D&D.

August 10, 2013

You Are A:

True Neutral

Human Cleric/Sorcerer

 Ability Scores:

Strength- 12
Dexterity- 12
Constitution- 11
Intelligence- 9
Wisdom- 9
Charisma- 9
Alignment:
True Neutral- A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. He doesn’t feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he’s not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment when it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction.

Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.

Primary Class:
Clerics- Clerics act as intermediaries between the earthly and the divine (or infernal) worlds. A good cleric helps those in need, while an evil cleric seeks to spread his patron’s vision of evil across the world. All clerics can heal wounds and bring people back from the brink of death, and powerful clerics can even raise the dead. Likewise, all clerics have authority over undead creatures, and they can turn away or even destroy these creatures. Clerics are trained in the use of simple weapons, and can use all forms of armor and shields without penalty, since armor does not interfere with the casting of divine spells. In addition to his normal complement of spells, every cleric chooses to focus on two of his deity’s domains. These domains grants the cleric special powers, and give him access to spells that he might otherwise never learn. A cleric’s Wisdom score should be high, since this determines the maximum spell level that he can cast.

Secondary Class:
Sorcerers- Sorcerers are arcane spellcasters who manipulate magic energy with imagination and talent rather than studious discipline. They have no books, no mentors, no theories just raw power that they direct at will. Sorcerers know fewer spells than wizards do and acquire them more slowly, but they can cast individual spells more often and have no need to prepare their incantations ahead of time. Also unlike wizards, sorcerers cannot specialize in a school of magic. Since sorcerers gain their powers without undergoing the years of rigorous study that wizards go through, they have more time to learn fighting skills and are proficient with simple weapons. Charisma is very important for sorcerers; the higher their value in this ability, the higher the spell level they can cast.



Detailed Results:

Alignment:
Lawful Good —– XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (15)
Neutral Good —- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (19)
Chaotic Good —- XXXXXXXXXXXXX (13)
Lawful Neutral — XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (22)
True Neutral —- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (26)
Chaotic Neutral – XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (20)
Lawful Evil —– XXXXXXXXXXX (11)
Neutral Evil —- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (15)
Chaotic Evil —- XXXXXXXXX (9)

Law & Chaos:
Law —– XXXXXXXX (8)
Neutral – XXXXXXXXXXXX (12)
Chaos — XXXXXX (6)

Good & Evil:
Good —- XXXXXXX (7)
Neutral – XXXXXXXXXXXXXX (14)
Evil —- XXX (3)

Race:
Human —- XXXXXXXXXXXXXX (14)
Dwarf —- XXXX (4)
Elf —— XXXXXXXX (8)
Gnome —- XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Halfling – XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Half-Elf – XXXXXXXXXXX (11)
Half-Orc – XXXX (4)

Class:
Barbarian – (0)
Bard —— XX (2)
Cleric —- XXXX (4)
Druid —– (0)
Fighter — (-6)
Monk —— (-23)
Paladin — (-23)
Ranger —- XX (2)
Rogue —– (-2)
Sorcerer — XXXX (4)
Wizard —- (0)

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Panopticon

August 7, 2013

panopticon

So, I went to the eye doctor today and got my eyes dialated. My pupils were beyond huge and it ‘s taken a couple of hours for them to start working again. I took the picture just to show how big my pupils got, but once I saw it, it got me thinking. Thinking about how the NSA scandal in the news isn’t news or new. There is a word for the constant surveillance that we have to come to accept as normal. It’s been around for a few thousand years, called the “panopticon”.

The most popular physical manifestation of the panopticon is a prison where all the inmates can be viewed without the inmates knowing if they are being observed. A british philosopher, Jeremy Bentham in the late 1700s popularized the term. Several prisons have been built around this idea. I learned the term circa 1995 reading a Popular Mechanics article about it, which summarized it as a “perfect” prison.

Talk show and website hosts have built careers around publicizing the idea and fear mongering about it. I’m talking about Prisonplanet.com and Alex Jones.

They can try to educate people, but the sad state of human nature is that without constant surveillance or thinking we are constantly being surveilled, large enough segments of the population will rob, rape and murder.  Being as those particular behaviors still happen, it begs to question whether or not it actually helps, or just catalogs those acts so there is a chance for eventual prosecution.

My conclusion is that it will deter some criminals, yet when people are desperate enough, or uncivilized enough, no camera is going to stop it. All it can do is deter some of them. I wish I could say that I see humanity lifting itself and becoming enlightened enough to not need such measures, but I just don’t see it happening yet.

All that I can do is be as positive a person as possible and believe that if I do enough good, good will come to me.

Did Bill Gates have an unknowing hand in the death of Usama Bin Laden?

July 27, 2013

Everyone knows that Bill Gates spent a large sum of his fortune vacinnating the world’s poorest populations against various preventable diseases. It is also known that one of the prime reasons that the CIA found UBL was that his DNA was found in Pakistan.

http://www.gatesfoundation.org/What-We-Do/Global-Development/Vaccine-Delivery

 

My theory is that the CIA used the legitimate Bill Gates vacinnation program as a cover to run a concurrent false vaccination program to obtain samples from the used needles and pinpoint UBL’s location by finding his DNA in Pakistan. 

http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2011/jul/11/cia-fake-vaccinations-osama-bin-ladens-dna

 

The CIA has a history of using industry titans to fund very expensive opertaions. Howard Hughes spent a large sum of money to create a “drilling vessel” to mine for magnanese nodules off the deep ocean floor. In fact, the vessel was used to recover a Soviet-era nuclear submarine.  

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/GSF_Explorer

Perhaps, motivated by the attacks of 9/11/2001, the CIA provided critical information to the CIA so our Seals could finally bring justice to the head of Al-Queda. I think that, Bill Gates program was seperate from the CIA’s operation. The CIA used the perception of an immunization program in order to find UBL.

An unintended consequence is the killing of Pakistani health care workers who have been targeted by religious extremists, because the extremists now believe any such program could be a covert investigation. 

http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2012/dec/18/polio-vaccination-workers-shot-pakistan

My conclusion: Pakistan’s intelligience services and government services should not have sheltered the location of UBL. While I feel empathy for the current innocent victims, I place the blame for their deaths on the Pakistani government for not turning over UBL much earlier. If they had, the active hot wars in Iraq and Afghanistan could have been much shorter, with much less collateral damages to all sides. 

 

My paradox of connectivity in an increasingly disconnected world.

July 27, 2013

I have a very tough time communicating effectively verbally. I don’t know why but I always think better while writing, especially while typing. I was never very good with penmanship, and my mind is always, always racing with many thoughts, usually pretty much simultaneously. To slow down and focus on individual task sometimes takes a whole lot of thought.

With that bit of self-over disclosure, on to the topic at hand: With the advent of modern electronic communications, I know of at least five different ways I can communicate: Phone, Fax, Email, Blogging, and face to face communication. I am weakest face to face. I don’t know why, but I do know if I am uncomfortable, for any reason, I can’t stay on topic verbally to save my life. don’t understand why, but I do understand that I am more comfortable dealing with machines than people. I think it may just be a matter of controlling my own message: While typing, I am able to type as fast as I can think and if I make a mistake, or pause, it’s okay. I can hit backspace or undo and I get the chance to proofread what I am saying. If I’m in a room full of people, my own thoughts usually get drowned out by other people who seem to think that its impossible to work in quiet and just enjoy the silence. I suppose the cliché phrase, “Silence is golden.” has a kernel of truth. Silence is extraordinarily rare and therefore valuable as gold. Practically everyone I know is bombarded with multimedia commercial, political, or entertainment (and sometimes a hybrid of all three, if you look for it.) messages. It has gotten to the point that if I don’t get a daily fix of these messages, I go through a bit of withdrawal.

I actually experienced this withdrawal while on a cruise….no access to internet or regular TV, and I suddenly had time to walk around a lot and see other people, and enjoy life a bit. It was both awesome and chilling. It was awesome, because I had to rely on my own wits to navigate my day, and I realized just how much I use Google for the simple things in life. It was chilling to learn just how little I remember; its also refreshing to realize that I can live without a computer. I know, its ironic that I’m claiming to be able to live without a computer while writing a blog.

I was discussing this topic with a friend today and it seems very obvious that I am not alone, and furthermore, it is more common than not for children today to spend so much time interacting with computer or television screens of any kind, that they are more technically skilled and have more sophisticated knowledge of many, many, topics, there is very little empathy or humanity within these individuals. Humanity has advanced so much scientifically and technically that we are all addicted somewhat to these various forms of media.

Another metaphor for social networking….it has become like the magic” mirror, mirror on the wall” in Disney’s Snow White. When we choose who we listen to by “liking” them, the algorithm for facebook starts feeding you links to things that you already like. It becomes a narcissistic, self feeding beast. It also sort of cripples me, because, on social media sites, I have complete control over what I consume that I have a hard time hearing and being able to interact with whatever topics that I don’t like. This bleeds over into my face-to-face interactions too much. I need to learn how to have a thick enough skin to not let things that bother me, well bother me.

The critical difference.

July 20, 2013

I have bipolar disorder. However, when my symptoms manifest themselves, I begin to say, “I’m bipolar”, There is a HUGE difference. To be something is to have absolutely no control or ability to manage it. Whereas, to merely have something is something that can be managed. I can choose how to react to other’s behaviors that trigger flashbacks and negative memories. I can choose to take my medications exactly as prescribed. I can choose to see my therapist on a regular basis to help me with my realationship intelligience. I can be a lot more productive in my workspace and also do better at more tasks than I give myself credit for being able to do. 

Electric Cars are NOT “green”.

July 18, 2013

I’ve been thinking alot about how “green” technology isn’t truly pollution free. While it is true that when you operate it, you are not producing pollution where you are operating it….no tailpipe emissions are not present at the site of operation, there is pollution made in the generation of the electricity. 

Coal plants obiously produce particulate pollution whether it goes out the smoke stack or is reclaimed prior to emission. Any fossil fuel will produce some pollution. The cleanest source of electricity is nuclear, but the waste products have to be extraordinarly accounted for because terrorists can use them to create havoc and terror. 

Aside from the pollution generated in moving the vehicle, all the materials used in the creation of the vehicle produce pollution. I understand that the materials are increasingly recycled or recylcable, however, the energy used in the production is not pollution free.

It’s more a question of where the pollution occurs. I do think that in densly populated areas, such as urban and suburban environments, electric cars make sense because too much smog causes many health issues, also the commutes in urban areas are usually a much lesser distance, so their current lesser range than fossil fuel operated car is offset by having less distance to travel. 

Overall, I think that they have their uses but are not a silver bullet to the transportation pollution problem. 

Random Political/Religious/Social Diatribe Number 1.

July 11, 2013

 

From the United States Bill of Rights:

“We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.”

That single sentence holds a lot of promise and great truths about the human condition. As, I mature and observe society around me, I notice that many people seem to think that we guranteed Happiness. However, the only right I see is the pursuit. Whole industries, legitimate and criminal have grown around fulfilling our individual desires. Here are a few:

  • The illicit drug trade. People get addicted to feeling unnaturally happy, causing massive social problems.
  • Overprescription of anti-depressants. These treat the symptom; not the cause. 
  • The gambling industry, while becoming more and more legal accross the country, it also causes addiction and social problems due to the allure of “free” money.
  • Overuse/abuse of social welfare programs. Any system that allows people to take from the public treasury will be rife with fraud, again, the concept of “free” money.

These are all problems that are absolutely not neccessary, yet we the people, actively choose to continue to pursue what our ideals of what will make us happy instead of leading lives that do produce happiness.

 

I am a Christian, a convert from protestantism to Catholicism. A lot of my Protestant friends like to point out what are considered flaws of Catholicism. Funny thing though, many of the obvious scandals that are highly publicized such as sex abuse by Priests and Nuns occur in Protestant faiths. Catholicism gets a bigger target because it appears as a monolitihic institution, thus easier to criticise…..and they did for a long time institutionally sin by not prosecuting fellow religious that violated children. No excuse for that. An example of a Protestant sex scandal: As a child, when we did go to church, as a family, then as a young adult when I was actively seeking God, I went to a local Presbyterian church that experienced such a scandal—there was wife swapping between preacher and his staff. The pastor lost his job, and was replaced, all very quietly. I grant this is a lesser degree of scandal because it all involved consenting, if not wise, adults.  Outside the religious sphere, If you search news outlets, there are plenty of pedophilia cases within the public school system. Yet, it is not seen as big a problem. In my egalitarian point of view, sin is sin, regardless of what the particular behavior is.

And this brings me back to my initial point. I think we have become so self focused on our individual perceived needs that we have lost something as a people. Maybe we always were this self centered. Perhaps I am looking for a past that didn’t exist, where people had some sort of common morality and decency.

I honestly don’t know. I do know that there is more to people than their economic worth, however, I don’t often experience people being good to each other. It seems as though the common philosophy I encounter is “every man for themself”, and “winner take all”. It just seems to me there must be something better, and I am seeking it. 

The only control I have is over my own reactions and actions and I have difficulty with that sometimes. I have to remember that I have no control over other people’s actions, I can only do what I can to help other people the best I can and continue to pray for others to see my worth. 

A brief introduction….

July 10, 2013

I see the world differently than most people. I’m not a very special person in the sense that I have accomplished, by monetary standards a great deal. I have struggled with personal problems and survived situations that a lot of people haven’t had to cope with…..this has caused me to develop personality traits and at times of stress exhibit behaviors that are atypical.

I seek no sympathy because other people have overcome even greater challenges than me. I want to journal about some of the most horrific things that have happened to me but also don’t want all that information out there for people to judge me by.

I have a lot of conflicted emotions and struggle every day to not be controlled by them. I wish by all that is Holy that I didn’t have the problems that I do, but, in a way, it has become my norm. I have many desires but struggle with some of the basic skills that I see and understand that more successful people utilize on a daily basis. I feel sort of as an untermensch. I have experienced a whole list of traumas that explain why I am the way I am and simultaneously want to somehow change me into a better version of myself. I know many others have experienced similar events and are somehow still able to overcome them. I draw hope from those individuals.